youjustmissedhim | recount 1/2

i had a hard time getting up today

i didnt get to sleep until maybe... 8am honestly

had to turn off my 10am meds alarm, which im trying to take an attitude of "i *will* take those god damn meds on time" to because i kept taking them super off schedule and it probably wasnt helping anything

i dont have a frame of reference of what its like when the medication is helping like it should its but taking it hectically wont exactly give me a chance to find out
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just texted the mental health case manager about resources for therapists because theyve been on the waitlist for half a year and god i need a therapist STAT
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i uhh... i thought about how i want to use dreamwidth, looked for blinkies, thought about personal stuff that started messing with my head and making reality feel more wobbly...

i yelled on tumblr about the emotional regulation issues ive been put in charge of

i took my evening meds on time (woo)

i think i want to go play a video game for a bit first actually.